unmarried. a blog
"Tell the truth about what it's like to be human."
- Cheryl Strayed
In my case, the arena currently consists of three life events happening, in concert, simultaneously: divorce, new job, new house.
Yes, I'm ready for a nap. And a vacation to a very distant land.
But, not yet. I'm still surveying the playing field in the arena.
The arena? Yes, the arena.
As in the place people go to duke it out and fight. Except...I'm not fighting anyone. I'm simply in the ring to battle personal demons, nay-saying thoughts, and ultimately, fear.
I read somewhere that if you want to do something but you're in fear, do it anyway despite being afraid.
Afraid? I can be afraid.
Coincidentally, the concept of afraid doesn't scare me as much... I guess because my whole life I was fending off "being a p*ssy" because being that meant being what I was: a girl.
That's a whole other post.
Well, I'm learning that if there's ever to be change in one's life, we must step up, step INTO the arena, and be brave enough to face uncertainty.
And, for me, there's PLENTY of uncertainty to go 'round.
But, also for me, that's A-okay.
Because, really, settling for what WAS was just that: settling.
And, like you, I'm not hardwired to simply settle.