unmarried. a blog
"Tell the truth about what it's like to be human."
- Cheryl Strayed
People like to own things: cars, houses, clothing. People will go out of their way to own these things by way of making money. Work, gambling, scheming.
What people don't like owning is their person: behaviors, words, feelings. People will go out of their way to avoid these things in an effort to unown them.
For example, yesterday I took a hit of the lowest kind. Regardless of the irrelevance of that person's existence in my life, it was still hurtful. And I reacted. Mama bear mode was in full effect.
I also let it affect me in ways that it shouldn't have. The lesson for me here is on ownership. Yes, I own a house, and yes, I am selling said house. But, putting material objects aside, the true thing that I own throughout any process, especially of the buying-and-selling kind, is that of my reactions (proactive or otherwise.) Should I have cried, kicked, screamed to process and allow myself to feel all the feels, of course. Should I have posted a rant on Facebook, probably not, but I'm a writer and writing is my way of processing.
Now that I'm on the other side of that situation and those feelings, I can proudly say that I handled it much better now than if this were my younger self years ago. I'm still a work-in-progress and, by the looks of it from yesterday's ordeal, so are many others.